Me in the four corners in my room
Me in the four corners in my room on October 14, 2009 at
02:57 AM |
It's raining again, and days like this brought coldness inside. No matter how I covered myself with blankets, I still feel it. It's getting cold. Or is it just hard to accept the fact that I am really alone in this life? I have friends. Yes. I have family. Yes. I have God who never fails me. But why do I feel so miserable every time He gives me struggles and overcome them all? When will it stop? I wish to be in contact with Him, but is there any other way rather than fighting what I have already fought for so long? I do have a lot of questions. But I haven't really asked myself when will I stop complaining.
In days like this, I envied those people who have someone to be held on tightly. Yes, I am alone and that is why I feel sad every time the rain pours down, because I never am happy and I never am satisfied with my life and I feel alone and all I could think of is myself. Am I doomed to live my life alone? Am I doomed to traverse the road less traveled by?
In days like this, I remembered you. But are you really true or are you just a lie I made to satisfy myself. I paced back and forth, checked my phone for messages and calls, only to find nothing. Am I so pathetic?
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